Genderqueer, or does queer come in quanta?

I am admitting to myself now my own genderqueerness, almost two years after I first realized it. Now, keeping it from myself has kept me up at night. Does queer come in quanta? Because right now, I feel extra queer, if that makes any sense. I no longer identify as a woman. So maybe this makes me trans, but in that extra-to-the-gender-binary way, not in the crossing from one gender in the binary to the other. I'm not sure the label "butch" quite describes me (maybe it will soon), although it comes closest.

Any pronoun will do, pretty much. The neuter (same as masculine) in the Hebrew appeals, but that is not useful. So use whatever pronoun system you want; I don't want to make a fuss about this issue.

My one concern is failing to be the daughter of my parents and granddaughter of my grandfather זצ"ל. However, I have not told my parents, so this is not yet an issue.

I suppose it's only fitting that I should be this way. I was never taught to be feminine (except by Amy and Stacey) but that was already too late, and even if I was taught earlier, I probably would have rebelled against it. The last time I was happy in a dress I was four, and that was for the novelty, not for the dress itself.

The name thing is still an issue.

Of course, I'll keep my handle.

Kythe